Life is hard. Sometimes I try to kid myself into thinking it's not supposed to be so hard, but the reality is, it's hard and that's why we appreciate it so much.
One of the trials I have faced during my life began nearly ten years ago when I embarked on the first experience of pregnancy which later ended in a miscarriage. For a while, I couldn't talk about it, didn't want to think about, kept wishing it didn't happen. But it did.
I didn't know until it was already too late that I was pregnant with triplets. That's still hard to grasp. Sometimes I let myself think about how it would be to have three, nine-year old kids right now and it's a pretty crazy thought! It doesn't hurt nearly as bad, but the fact that I still think about those babies, shows how powerful the bond was even though my pregnancy did not come to fruition.
As I've worked over the years gathering information for my book, Lost Children: Coping with Miscarriage, I've learned many things. One is that I'm stronger than the trials I face--I'm still here! It's hard to talk about things and realize that nothing can change the past. And most important, I've learned that I am of individual worth.
I am a mother of three beautiful children now and everyday I thank my Heavenly Father for them. Being a mother is hard work, and getting there was half the battle. But something I learned over the years of infertility and miscarriages (yes there was more than one) is that my worth is not defined by my motherhood. I am a valuable person no matter how many children I have or didn't have while I was waiting for them to come.
I hope that if you have struggled with something similar that you will take this nugget of truth with you today. You are of individual worth, despite your trials and the circumstances you face. You are beautiful, you are loved, you are a child of God.
May you find peace today.
*If you would like to share your experiences, ask questions, or contribute to my guest column, please email me at copewithmiscarriage AT gmail dot com
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Hi, I'm glad you started this blog. Miscarriage is a topic that needs more awareness & support. Your blog is great and I'm looking forward to reading more of your comments! Best wishes :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for your encouragement. I have some things planned that I hope will provide both awareness and support.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the nugget of truth. Even when we know we're loved by our Heavenly Father, it's always nice to be reminded.
ReplyDeleteI had a miscarriage 36 years ago, and it's not something that a woman forgets. I choose to beleive that my baby is in the hands of God. God has big hands so that we can put our cares and concerns and our miracle babies their, and know that they are loved. Dianne Davis
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your thoughts, Cindy and Dianne. :)
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